Sorry, Blame It On Me

I stood there weighing my options. I could stay for a couple of minutes and listen to what Logan had to say or I could just ignore him and leave. I had nothing to lose by staying there and listening to him. Nothing he could say could make me any less hurt and nothing he could say could hurt me any more. He couldn't say anything to make me forgive him for ruining my friendship with Haylie. If I left, all of the what-if thoughts would pop in my head.

"Sure, Logan," I said. "Only for a couple of minutes."

"Thanks, Court," he said, with a sigh of relief. "Come in." I followed him into the living room and I sat down on the couch. He had the TV on. I stared at it for a second before he had turned it off. It was an episode of ABDC. I made a mental note to check it out when I got home.

"Ok, Logan," I said. "What did you want to talk about?"

"I want to apologize to you on how we ended things," he said, softly. He spoke so softly that I almost didn't hear him.

"Ok," I said, nodding.

He took a deep breath and put his head down. He was fidgeting around with the ring and fidgeting in his seat. I could see sweat almost pouring down his forehead. Needless to say, he seemed incredibly nervous.

"We didn't want you to find out that way," he said. "I had planned on telling you soon. I had started to lose my feelings towards you and I turned to Haylie for help. I-"

I shook my head. I didn't want to know the gory details of how my best friend had stole my boyfriend. I didn't want to have to relive the pain or feel the anger. I just wanted to move on.

"Listen, Logan, you don't have to explain," I told him.

"But, I do," he said. I sighed. "It's my fault. I want you to know that she didn't come onto me, I came onto her. She was there in my time of need. It's not her fault, none of this is her fault, Court. She misses you."

"I miss her too, Logan," I admitted.

"I want to apologize about that night at the diner," he said. "I didn't know you were going to be there. Haylie didn't tell me that Justin and Sarah were having all of you guys there. I honestly thought it was just going to be the three of them."

"It's ok," I said. "I didn't know either."

"I have something I want to tell you," he said. "I want you to hear it from me before hearing it from anyone else." He paused.

"Ok, what is it?" I said, with a hint of encouragement in my voice. "You can tell me."

"I don't know how to tell you this," he said, uncomfortably.

"Just spit it out, Logan," I joked. I was just as nervous as he was. I chuckled nervously.

"Haylie's pregnant, Court," he said. "With my child."