The next few days passed without any incident. It was really awkward seeing Logan in class, but he had enough sense to sit in the front of the class and not his usual seat besides me. The entire school knew that he had cheated on me and that I had broken up with him. Today, he tried to talk to me as I walked out of class.
"Court, can I talk to you?" Logan asked, trying to catch up to me. I quickened my pace. He grabbed my arm and I turned around.
"Don't you dare touch me, Logan!" I yelled, yanking my arm away. I caught the attention of a few students. They were eagerly waiting to see what would happen next. "We have nothing to talk about. I want you to stay away from me." I quickly walked away and tried to ignore the stares.
Brittany caught up to me after my next class and was nagging at me to talk to Adam.
"If you don't do it soon, you're going to explode and make the situation worse," she told me.
I knew that she was right, but I didn't want to confront him. I was done with confrontations. I had confronted Adam and I had confronted Logan (twice). I was just tired and emotionally drained.
Strangely enough, I didn't miss Logan at all. Maybe I was still in shock. I told him that I loved him for the short time we've been together. But, if I had truly loved him, shouldn't I be extremely depressed, whining, crying, spreading rumors about Haylie- having the exact same reaction that Farrah did when Taylor cheated on her? Then, it hit me. I was never truly in love with Logan in the first place.
I still think about Farrah from time to time. I wondered how she was. I wondered if she was over the whole Taylor incident. I wondered how long it took for her to get over it. I never thought about how she felt, I had only thought about being with Taylor. I couldn't believe how selfish I was. I wonder if I could ever forgive Haylie for what she's done.
I made my way to the cafeteria and got a sandwich to eat. I walked out to the quad and found an empty bench. I took out my physiology book and started to read about neurons. I stopped reading when I noticed a shadow standing besides me. I looked up and saw Haylie.
"Court, can we talk?" she asked me. I could see the hurt in her eyes. I could see that she looked fatigued and wasn't eating well. Seeing her standing besides me made me incredibly angry.
"No," I told her. "Like I told Logan, we have nothing to talk about."
Most people would have gotten the hint, but not Haylie. She came and sat down next to me on the bench.
"Please, Court," she pleaded. "I just want to explain." I jumped up from my seat.
"Oh, you want to explain?" I shouted, angrily. "You want to explain why you slept with my boyfriend? You want to explain why you're an sorry excuse for a friend? You want to explain why you're a backstabbing, two-faced whore?"
She slapped me hard across the face. I looked at her, my mouth hanging wide open, in shock. I was ready to jump her when Adam squeezed between us and pulled me away.
"No, she slapped me!" I shouted at him. "What are you doing?"
"Are you crazy?" he asked me. "If I didn't stop you, you'd get suspended. She's not worth it, Court."
"Why did you lie to me about Haylie?" I asked him, angrily. "I can handle the truth, Adam, I'm not some child that you have to lie to! You should have told me in the first place!"
"I-" he started to say.
"I'm starting to think Taylor was right about you paying that girl to make it look like he was cheating on me," I cut him off. "Just leave me alone, Adam." I stormed off.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Beat It
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Alright, Court. I understand you're being angry and not wanting to deal, but you can't keep walking away or you'll never get the straight story. What could Haylie possibly have to say for herself - I don't know. And Adam, the good friend. Yeah right. I'm really enjoying this blog. mum
The English system is actually incredibly complicated because it's different depending on which area of the country that you live in. :(
In come parts of the country, (like where I live) you do an exam when you're 11. The people who pass this exam then go to a grammar school (Most of these are single sex, that's why my school is all girls). If you fail, you go to a normal secondary school. In the rest of the country, this doesn't happen, everyone just goes to the same schools. Then at 16 you do exams; most people do GCSEs, but other's do B tech. After you've done these exams you are allowed to leave school but you have to stay in some form of education. Some people choose to stay at their schools, others go to specialist colleges (e.g. drama) , others leave school and become apprentices (jobs like builders etc can have apprenticeships). If you want to continue to university or college then, when you're 18, you take some more exams, either B tech or A levels. In order to go to University, you need at least 3 A levels at grade C or above. Some people go to college instead though, to study things like hairdressing or some art courses.
Mum- you're completely right that she needs to stop walking away so she can deal with the situation and move on. I'm glad that you're enjoying the blog. =]
Sophie- That sounds really complicated. From what I'm understanding is that you have many more requirements for your higher education than we do in the US. At 16, we take the SATs (well, junior year in high school) and we have an alternate test which colleges look at, which is the ACT. We don't take anymore exams until we reach the University setting. I don't remember what the test is called, but it's a writing test for people to get into upper division courses. Then there's another exam depending on your field of study (law, medicine, etc).
I think you have a stricter system and quite frankly, I like your system more. I think it's good to seperate those who are serious and those who aren't. :)
It's good for some people, but the way the exams and the schools are set up, it's really biased in favour of the richer people. (you can tell I'm studying sociology, we had to study this last year :)) Like at my school, we need and are expected to have unlimited access to computers/the internet at home (that's a problem if you don't have enough computers at home for one each, or you have to share with a sibling), and we get asked to buy a lot of extra books and other equipment. E.g. in one of my subjects I got asked to spend £80 ($130) on extra books. Also, most of the girls at my school have extra tutors in each of their subjects. If you were poor, you wouldn't be able to afford that. It means a lot of the people in grammar schools are really snobby because there's almost no one around who's poorer.
Ugh, that stinks. Are there any government programs or scholarships to help those who don't have the funds for the tuition and books?
I know fighting doesn't solve anything but I don't know if I could have contained myself if I were Courtney. That bitch Haylie deserves a beatdown. But I do wonder what Logan has to say for himself. I mean he through Farah out there so that might be why I want to know his motives. Haylie can go to hell for all I care. With friends like that who needs enemies? And Adam...well I know Adam loves Courtney but he owes her an explanation for all the secrets and lies.
Stephanie- I think that Logan may just be one of those people who throws your mistakes back in your face when you get them angry/irritated/etc.
Court's going to have to talk to Adam sooner or later. I think she's just choosing later.
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