Sunday, February 28, 2010

Note: Captcha

Hey guys!

So, There has been spamming in the comments, with links to random websites being posted on previous comment posts, posts from a couple months ago. I don't know who is posting the links, but hopefully after I put the captcha on the spamming will stop. I don't want there to be a risk of being contracting a virus onto their computers/laptops due to my blog.

I'm sorry to say that the captcha will now be in place. I know they're annoying and I hate them too, that's why I chose to not put them up. But, because of one person (or some people) I have to.

I will be deleting the spam in a minute, but I wanted to let you guys know that from now on, when you comment, there will be a captcha to type in. I'm sorry, guys. :(

Saturday, February 27, 2010

The Winner

As luck would have it, the only open seat was the one right next to Haylie. I calmly walked over and sat down next to her. My strategy was to avoid looking at her. Of course, when someone looks away and tries to avoid all eye contact with a person, you start talking to them, right? That's what Haylie did. I tried not to laugh out loud because I had jinxed myself.

"So, did Logan tell you?" Haylie asked, curiously.

"Yeah, he did," I said, softly. I didn't want the other three girls to overhear our conversation. I guess it wasn't a conversation, she was asking a question and I was answering. I still didn't want anyone overhearing.

"I'm sorry for everything that happened," she said, with a bit of sadness in her voice. She looked at me. "I never meant for any of this to happen."

She had tears in her eyes and I instantly felt sorry for her. Here she was, probably scared out of her mind. I'm pretty sure that she hasn't told her parents yet. I don't know what she was going to do and I'd be lying if I said that I knew what she was going through. I wished that she didn't have to go through this, but I guess this is just karma or something getting back at her.

"I know," I said. We sat in an awkward silence until Jasmine came in to start the interview process.

"Ok, guys, I'm going to have you girls in here one at a time," Jasmine informed us, smiling. "I'll call you later on today to tell you if you got the job or not. Ok, the first person up is Elizabeth. Elizabeth?" The brunette in the corner raised her hand to get Jasmine's attention.

"Right here," Elizabeth said, smiling.

"Alright, the rest of you girls please wait outside until you are called," Jasmine said.

She ushered the four of us left the office and we waited outside. The two other girls were standing really close to the door to try to hear the questions being asked in the interview. I almost laughed and I shook my head in disbelief.

I was called in after Elizabeth had left. I passed by Haylie and I think I heard her whisper good luck to me. I smiled at her. The interview was painless. I had put Sarah's tips to good use and I think I aced it. Hopefully, I'll get the job.

I was eating dinner when the call came in. I immediately jumped up out of my seat and ran into the living room.

"Hi, Jasmine," I said, cheerfully.

"Hello, Courtney," She said. I couldn't tell if she was happy, sad, angry, tired, or any other type of emotion. I was starting to get worried that I didn't have the job. "I have some good news! You're hired!"

"Thank you so much!" I said, appreciatively. "I promise you won't regret your decision."

"Great!" she said, laughing. "Bring in your paperwork on Monday for me to sign and we'll put you on the schedule after you give us your work permit."

"Thanks, Jasmine," I told her. We worked out when I would bring her my paperwork. Immediately after getting off the phone, I screamed in excitement. My parents looked at me like I was crazy.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Fast-Talking Friday

Hey guys! Another Friday! :)

How are you guys? Anything new with you? :)

There's nothing really new about me. I'm just trying to get through one day at a time and realizing that there are more and more deadlines for school. The joys of being a student. LOL. But, I'm feeling alot better and I'm pretty sure all I have left is a cough! Yay!

I watched a little of the winter Olympics during the week. I watched a little bit of the womens' bobsled competition and part of the ice skating competition. It was pretty cool. :) I was rooting for Yu-Na Kim to win gold and she did! There was an article out on Yahoo! which said that she recieved many endorsements and deals (totaling to 8 million, I believe) BEFORE she recieved the gold medal. I found that funny because in the U.S, you win the gold first and then get the endorsements and money. :)

Onto a slightly more interesting topic: The Orlando SeaWorld incident.

I was incredibly shocked when I heard that it happened. I couldn't believe that someone, let alone a trainer, had died at SeaWorld. I finally got around to doing some research after the shock wore off and I found out that the whale had a "violent history" and was involved in two deaths in the past.

I had read that the trainer had wanted to work at SeaWorld since she was a little girl. She died doing the thing she loved. But, my thoughts and prayers are with her family. This was an unbelievable saddness in a very unsuspecting place.

I don't know if SeaWorld is to blame for her death. I think that they have an obligation to obtain a whale that didn't have a history of violence in relation of two deaths in two seperate occasions.

Do you guys have any thoughts/comments on the SeaWorld incident or about the Olympics or the blog or anything else? Everything is fair game. :)

Happy Friday! :)

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Something New

What Logan said had gotten me thinking. It seemed to me that everyone around me was growing up and dealing with adult responsibilities. It made me feel like a little kid compared to them. Logan and Haylie were having a baby and Justin and Sarah were getting married in the summer. It doesn't make any sense, I know, but I really feel like I'm left out of everything. It doesn't mean that I'm going to get engaged anytime soon or get knocked up, but I could start moving into that direction of being an adult.

Also, I felt really guilty that Taylor had been paying for all of our dates so far. I had also felt uncomfortable when I was with Logan, where he paid for most of our dates. I want it to be equal because I don't want Taylor to go broke for me. Well, he's broke already since he just paid for all of his books for college, I don't want him to become more broke. After much consideration, I reached the decision that it was time for me to get a job.

I had spent all day walking around town asking if the stores were hiring. Most places looked at me like I was crazy. I got a lot of "sorry, but we're not hiring" from various managers. I think I've only filled out one or two applications.

Surprisingly, I had gotten a call back from a small clothing store, called Bella, a couple of days after I had applied. Sarah was nice enough to help me prepare for my job interview. She was a lifesaver, who gave me some awesome tips.

"Dress for success," she had told me while searching through my closet for something professional to wear. "Always wear a watch because it shows that you're great at time management."

I nodded while I jotted the things down. She gave me some other great tips like how not to fall for the trick questions on those 100 something questions on the survey the employers give you, how to ace the interview, how to avoid potholes during the interview process- Sarah's amazing.

On the day of the interview, I put on the professional outfit that Sarah had laid out for me. It consisted of a ruffled blouse and a pencil skirt. I had my hair neatly curled and slid into my heels. I kept my accessories down to a minimum. I only had on a necklace that I had gotten from their store. I made my way over to the store twenty minutes early.

"Hi, Courtney," the manager, Jasmine, greeted me. She was really friendly and inviting the last time I spoke to her. Today, she looked slightly stressed out. "You're here early. I have a lot of interviews to get through, can you wait in my office with the other applicants, please?"

"No problem, Jasmine," I told her.

I went to the back office and peeked inside to see the other applicants. To my surprise, Haylie was sitting in one of the applicant chairs.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Say Ahh

It clicked in my head. I finally understood why both Logan and Haylie tried to separately talk to me at school. I was incredibly speechless. What do I even say? Do I congratulate him or do I say I'm sorry? I didn't have to say anything, Logan broke down, crying.

"Things got so messed up, Court," he said with tears streaming down his face. "I don't know what to do."

I was uncomfortable with seeing Logan cry. To me, guys were the emotionally strong ones who never cried and it's odd for me to actually see them cry. It's sad to say that they are less of a man in my eyes if they start bawling like Logan is.

"There, there," I said, somewhat comfortingly. I patted his hand. "Everything is going to be ok."

"We went to the doctor and she said that the baby is due sometime in September," he said, nervously. "What about college? What about our futures? I told her it was her decision on whether or not to keep the baby. I don't know what to do."

"What did she decide?" I asked him.

"I think she wants to keep it," he said, on the verge of hyperventilating. "I don't know what to do."

"I think you know what to do," I told him, surprising calmly. "I think that you should support her if she wants to keep the baby and be there for her when she needs you. The baby's going to need a dad in their life. You know that."

"I know," he said, sighing. "I don't know if I'm ready to be one yet. I'm not even 18 yet."

"If it means anything," I said. "I think I think you'd make a great dad."

"Thanks, Court," he said. His tears had stopped and he had regained some of his composure.

"I should get going," I said. "Thanks for talking with me."

"Don't blame Haylie," he said. "None of this was her fault."

I waved a hand in the air as I walked out. He might think that Haylie didn't have any fault in this, but she did. She didn't have to sleep with him. She didn't have to end up in this situation. It's just the consequences of her actions. It's sad to say that she's going to have to live with them for the rest of her life.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Sorry, Blame It On Me

I stood there weighing my options. I could stay for a couple of minutes and listen to what Logan had to say or I could just ignore him and leave. I had nothing to lose by staying there and listening to him. Nothing he could say could make me any less hurt and nothing he could say could hurt me any more. He couldn't say anything to make me forgive him for ruining my friendship with Haylie. If I left, all of the what-if thoughts would pop in my head.

"Sure, Logan," I said. "Only for a couple of minutes."

"Thanks, Court," he said, with a sigh of relief. "Come in." I followed him into the living room and I sat down on the couch. He had the TV on. I stared at it for a second before he had turned it off. It was an episode of ABDC. I made a mental note to check it out when I got home.

"Ok, Logan," I said. "What did you want to talk about?"

"I want to apologize to you on how we ended things," he said, softly. He spoke so softly that I almost didn't hear him.

"Ok," I said, nodding.

He took a deep breath and put his head down. He was fidgeting around with the ring and fidgeting in his seat. I could see sweat almost pouring down his forehead. Needless to say, he seemed incredibly nervous.

"We didn't want you to find out that way," he said. "I had planned on telling you soon. I had started to lose my feelings towards you and I turned to Haylie for help. I-"

I shook my head. I didn't want to know the gory details of how my best friend had stole my boyfriend. I didn't want to have to relive the pain or feel the anger. I just wanted to move on.

"Listen, Logan, you don't have to explain," I told him.

"But, I do," he said. I sighed. "It's my fault. I want you to know that she didn't come onto me, I came onto her. She was there in my time of need. It's not her fault, none of this is her fault, Court. She misses you."

"I miss her too, Logan," I admitted.

"I want to apologize about that night at the diner," he said. "I didn't know you were going to be there. Haylie didn't tell me that Justin and Sarah were having all of you guys there. I honestly thought it was just going to be the three of them."

"It's ok," I said. "I didn't know either."

"I have something I want to tell you," he said. "I want you to hear it from me before hearing it from anyone else." He paused.

"Ok, what is it?" I said, with a hint of encouragement in my voice. "You can tell me."

"I don't know how to tell you this," he said, uncomfortably.

"Just spit it out, Logan," I joked. I was just as nervous as he was. I chuckled nervously.

"Haylie's pregnant, Court," he said. "With my child."

Friday, February 19, 2010

Fast-Talking Friday

Hey guys!

How are you?

This post is a little later than I anticipated. I'm a little under the weather right now and I fell asleep last night. It's no fun being sick and trying to keep up with all of your responsibilities. I apologize for this being later than usual.

I'm excited to say that I might be going to New York at the end of May and at the beginning of June. The plans are not rock solid yet, but after I talk to my grandmother to make the arrangement, they will be solid. I haven't seen my grandmother and grandfather in almost 5 years, so I'm really excited to be able to have this opportunity to visit them. Also, my uncle just had a little girl. It's cute. He and my aunt have been together for over 10 years and they just recently had a little girl and got married. :)

So, that's just a heads up that I might be in NY at the end of May/beginning of June.

The winter Olympics are going on right now. I'm not currently following it. Are any of you guys watching/keeping up with the Olympics? Some of the events seem really cool and I'd like to get your opinion on whether or not it's good. =]

Happy Friday, guys! :)

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Move On

I had decided that it was a good time to clean my room. Usually, my room looked clean enough like it should be in a new home's magazine, but lately, it's been a pigsty. I didn't know where to start- do I wash the giant load of laundry or pick up everything off the floor? I shrugged to myself and started picking up my papers and the cat toys off the floor. My kitty tends to forget where she leaves all of her toys, usually, they're all in my room.

I spotted something shiny that had fell behind my nightstand. I moved it aside and I held it up by the chain and discovered that I had found Logan's class ring. I stared at it for a couple of minutes, not quite knowing what to do with it. Do I return it to Logan? Do I keep it? Do I wait for him to ask for it back? I had forgotten that I still had this thing.

My phone vibrated, startling me. I picked it up and saw that the message was from Taylor. Just wanted to tell you that I'm glad we're back together. Reading that put a smile to my lips. I texted him that I was glad we were back together too.

I still didn't know what to do with Logan's ring. I sat on my bed and thought about it for a couple of minutes. I decided that I would return it to him right now to get it over with. I didn't want to have to talk to Logan a couple months down the line.

Getting in my car, I made my way to Logan's house. I parked my car in his driveway and sat there for a couple of minutes before I was able to gather enough courage to walk up to his front door and ring his doorbell. I stood there for a minute before Logan had answered it. He looked surprised to see me.

"What are you doing here?" he asked me.

"I just wanted to give you this back," I said, holding up his class ring.

"I didn't know you still had it," he said, softly. I put it in the palm of his hand.

"I just found it today," I said. "I figured that you might want it back."

"I do, thanks," he said, appriciatively.

We stood there awkwardly. It was obvious that we had nothing to say to each other.

"Well, I'm going to go," I said. "I'll see you around."

"Court, wait," he said, grabbing my wrist. "Can we go inside and talk?"

Monday, February 15, 2010

Can't Take My Eyes Off You

I anxiously got ready for my date with Taylor. I slipped into my one shoulder, red hot, skin-tight dress after curling my hair and completing my makeup. I had decided to use more makeup than I usually did, playing up my eyes. I was really excited to see what he had planned. By the time I had found my red clutch, Taylor was already here. I quickly stuffed everything I could into my clutch.

I went downstairs and saw Taylor dressed up in a dress shirt and dress pants. I couldn't help but run up to him and jump into his arms.

"Hey," he said, laughing. "You look gorgeous."

"You look pretty good yourself," I said. I took his hand and brought him into the kitchen. "I made you brownies."

"You're adorable, thank you," he said. He kissed me. "I have a surprise for you too." He pulled out a red handkerchief.

"You're kinky," I joked, laughing. He blindfolded me with the handkerchief and carefully led me out of my house. I couldn't help but feel really ridiculous. I started laughing when I bumped my head against his car. He made sure I was ok and started asking me questions to make sure I didn't have a concussion. I giggled at how cute he was.

We drove for a little bit, I couldn't figure out what our destination was or how long we had actually been driving, when Taylor had stopped. I heard his door open and close and felt my door open.

"I'll be right back," he told me. "Don't look."

He closed the door and I sat there alone. I couldn't hear any noises and I couldn't see through the blindfold. I wish I had a clue as to where we were and what we were doing. If I didn't trust Taylor, I'd be a little freaked out. I was relieved when he had came back to let me know it's safe to come out.

He took my hand and led me to an area to sit down. I felt around me and it seemed like I was sitting on a blanket. I smiled, I figured out where we were. Taylor held me in his arms for a minute before removing the blindfold. I smiled. We were on top of the mountain and we were watching the sunset. I kissed him.

"This is amazing," I said. We were sitting on a huge picnic blanket and he had hung up heart shaped lanterns on the nearby trees. There were rose petals scattered on the picnic blanket, a bottle of sparkling apple cider chilling in a wine cooler, a picnic basket filled with my favorite foods, and a teddy bear with a box of chocolate leaning next to it. He had brought the brownies I made for him along also. I couldn't help but grin. I was extremely happy. "I love it."

We sat there cuddling with his arms around me until the sun had set. He lit the heart shaped candles. We enjoyed our little picnic and laid there staring at what little stars there were in the sky.

"I have something for you," he said, softly.

"Really, Taylor, this whole night was amazing," I said. "You didn't have to get me anything else."

He sat up and pulled a ring box out from his pocket. I was shocked when he handed it to me. I opened it and I let out a mental sigh of relief. I was staring at his class ring on a gold necklace.

"Court, will you be my girlfriend?" he asked me.

"Of course," I said, smiling. "I'd love to be your girlfriend, Taylor."

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy Valentine's Day & Happy Lunar New Year!

I just wanted to take a quick second to wish you guys a Happy Valentine's Day and Happy Lunar New Year! May this day be filled with lots of love and luck! :)

Saturday, February 13, 2010


I sighed as I glanced at the overcrowded aisles filled with red, white, and pink. Normally, I loved to shop, but I was having a hard time contemplating on what to get Taylor for Valentine's Day. I didn't know what was an appropriate gift for someone you had a previous relationship with but started to hang out with, trying to rekindle our relationship. That and I had a hard time with looking at that much red, white, and pink all crammed into three aisles.

I wandered through the aisle looking at all of the Valentine's Day paraphernalia. I have never really noticed that almost all of the merchandise is geared towards women. I would love to receive a teddy bear holding a heart with an "I love you" written on it, a gigantic box of chocolates in a heart shaped box, or a dozen red roses. In fact, I knew many women would love to receive these gifts on Valentine's Day. I left, figuring that I wouldn't have any luck here.

I walked home and went to my computer to look up some tips for gifts for guys. All I came up with were simple, non-Valentine related gifts. That didn't scream romantic to me. I ended up deciding to bake him heart-shaped brownies. I went downstairs to search for the brownie mix and found Brittany already in the kitchen.

"Hey, what are you making?" I asked her.

"A non-Valentine for tomorrow," she said, shrugging. "It's better than the mushy-gushy things in the stores. I mean, really? What is Zack supposed to do with a teddy bear holding a big heart? The guys will laugh at him." I laughed.

"Good point," I said. "I'm thinking about baking some brownies for Taylor. Do you know where the brownie mix is?"

"Yeah, it's right here," she said, pulling it down from a cupboard. "Speaking of Taylor, he was came by when you were in the store."

"Really?" I asked her. "What did he want?"

"He left you these roses," she said, pulling me into the living room. She showed me a bouquet of red roses.

"Thanks, Brit," I said, smiling. I couldn't help it, it was incredibly cute of him to get me roses. I opened the card that was stuck in the bouquet.

Hey stranger,
I can't wait until tomorrow night- be prepared for a lovely evening.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Fast-Talking Friday

Hey guys!

How's your day going? =]

So yesterday was my boyfriend's birthday. He absolutely loved the Nano that I had gotten him. I think it's because he MP3 had broken down today, which was really an odd coincidence. He loved the pajama pants I got him and the nano case. We didn't really do anything special. His parents had ordered pizza instead of buying a cake (I wanted to take him out to Applebee's or Chili's or something, the no cake thing made me kind of sad. I thought they had that covered so I didn't get him one. What's a birthday without cake?). So, we had a really low key birthday.

Do you guys have a favorite birthday? I don't think I've ever had a favorite birthday. Birthdays aren't really a big deal in my family. We buy a cake and we go out to eat. We don't have a party or anything. So, it's really low key.

Onto another topic: the weekend!

What are your guys' weekend plans? This is a jam-packed weekend with Valentine's Day , Lunar New Year (I had a guy in class today say that he's celebrating Chinese New Year and when asked why (he was Hispanic), he replied with "my wife, she's Vietnamese", it made me LOL. :P), and President's Day (not really a great holiday for most people, but for those who go to school and get the day off, it's awesome!)

I may have mentioned this before (maybe not?), I'm going to San Francisco on Valentine's/Lunar New Year with my family and celebrating V-day on Saturday. I baked cupcakes tonight but ended up overcooking the mini-muffin sized ones. It was my first time experimenting with Angel food cake mix. I'm not suprised that I ruined some (I don't cook and I thought I could bake decently.. well.. until up to this incident).

Sorry that this is long. I tend to babble A LOT. It's a really bad habit.

Happy Friday! I hope you have a great weekend! =]

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Crazy Beautiful

Sarah and Justin had invited me out to dinner tonight at our burger joint. I was slightly confused why we were going out to dinner. Sarah and Justin lived really busy lives and I respected that by giving them their space. I was curious why I was invited and told them I'd be there at 7.

I arrived at the burger joint a couple of minutes before 7. Justin and Sarah were already there and they had gotten us the big booth. I waved at them and went over. Sarah got up to give me a hug.

"Hey, guys," I said, grinning. "This is a surprise, what's the occasion?"

"I want to wait until everyone comes before I say anything," Sarah said. I didn't think I heard her correctly, but I thought I heard her say everyone.

"Everyone?" I asked her, questioningly. "Who's everyone?"

"Henry, Adam, and Haylie," Justin said. "Who else could everyone be?"

My face froze when she said Haylie. It must have been noticeable because Sarah started to look a little worried.

"Are you ok, Court?" Sarah asked me. "You look a little pale."

"No, I'm fine," I lied. "I didn't know that everyone else was coming."

I started to feel a little nauseous. I wanted to leave, but I knew that whatever news Sarah and Justin had must have been big if they had invited all of us out. I didn't want to put my personal problems ahead of my friendship with them, so I stayed.

I played catch up with Sarah and Justin for a couple of minutes when Henry and Adam arrived. I waved at Henry and civilly said hello to Adam. He gave me a cold nod in response. I sighed softly. Things were going to be weird between us for awhile. Sarah shot me a confused look and I smiled weakly. I turned to Henry and we chatted about the Superbowl while we waited for Haylie.

Haylie arrived 20 minutes late in the arms of Logan. They were all over each other, all lovey-dovey with one another. It make me want to throw up. I hated seeing them together. I can't really explain it. I didn't want Logan for myself, but I hated seeing him together with Haylie. I looked at Henry and the look on his face was unforgettable. He looked completely heartbroken seeing Haylie with someone else.

Sarah shot me a very confused look. She had no idea that Haylie was with Logan. The last thing she heard was that Logan and I were together. I hadn't gotten around to telling her the drama that had occurred or that Logan and I had broken up. I instantly felt guilty. I needed to do a better job communicating with Sarah.

"Haylie, I didn't know you were bringing a date," Sarah said. She looked at the booth. "We're going to have to try to squeeze him in."

"Oh, he's not staying," Haylie said. She completely ignored my presence. I was glad that we weren't speaking and were just pretending that the other didn't exist. Logan looked uncomfortable and avoided looking at me like I was Medusa and was going to turn him into stone. "He just wanted to get something to eat, right, babe?"

"Yeah," Logan said. He gave her a kiss and I swear he grabbed her butt before leaving. Haylie took a seat next to Adam.

"Since we're all here," Justin said. "Sarah and I have an announcement to make."

"We're engaged!" Sarah blurted out, giggling hysterically. We all clamored in excitement and congratulated them.

"When's the wedding?" I asked her.

"In July," she said, grinning. We were all too busy congratulating and questioning Justin and Sarah to notice Haylie had slipped out.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Don't Matter

A couple of weeks flew by and before I knew it, we were in February. I had tried to talk to Adam to mend things up between us, but he was avoiding me like the plague. It had really hurt that Haylie threw away our friendship to be with Logan, but now, losing Adam too, made my heart ache. Losing both of my best friends left a hole in my heart. The only silver lining was Taylor.

Hanging out with him for the past few weeks have been amazing. Most of the time, we'd sit in his kitchen doing homework. I didn't know Beachside University gave out so much homework, I was starting to get a little worried that I wouldn't be able to pass any of my class and I'd flunk out of college. I asked him why he got so much homework and he informed me that he was an engineering major.

Today was no different, we were sitting in his kitchen with our textbooks open. He was reading his Chemistry textbook and I was doing my English homework. I was busy trying to find the quote I needed for my essay.

"Can I ask you something?" Taylor asked me.

"Sure," I said, my nose still buried in my book.

"What happened between you and Logan?" he asked. I sighed and closed my book.

I told him about Logan and I dating. I told him about finding Haylie and Logan together after Logan had lied to me about going to work. I told him that I made the biggest mistake of my life by getting drunk and sleeping with my best friend, ruining our friendship. I told him about the second biggest mistake of my life by telling Adam that I'd give him a chance when I knew that I didn't and most likely wouldn't have any feelings for him. I told him about my confrontation with Logan and our nasty breakup and how he and Haylie tried to confront me at school. After I was done telling him everything that had happened over the past month, I felt relieved.

"Wow," he said, amazed. I don't think that he knew what a loaded question that was. "That's the last time I ask you a question." I smiled and smacked him on the arm.

"Are you ok with everything?" I asked him. "No bad blood between you and Adam or Logan? You're not going to go and punch them in the face or anything like that?"

"Honestly, Court, I don't care about Logan or Adam," he said. "I care about you. They're in your past and that's where they're going to stay, right?" I nodded.

"Yeah, they are," I said, softly. "I'm sorry I didn't believe you when you told me you didn't cheat on me."

"It's ok, Court," he said, smiling. "It's in the past, but it means a lot that you're apologizing."

Saturday, February 6, 2010

The Truth

We got back to Beachside at around midnight. We stopped by a local diner to get something to eat. I had an insane craving for some french fries and decided to order a bacon burger with fries. Taylor ordered a burger and said that he wasn't too hungry, but he kept swiping fries off my plate. I kicked him lightly under the table.

"Hey!" he said, grinning. He rubbed his shin, playfully. "You're mean."

"Don't take my fries," I said, laughing.

He continued to take fries off my plate. We finished our burgers and paid the bill. It was a five minute ride from the diner to my house. We were there in no time. I got off of his bike and stared at him in amazement. I can't believe I broke up with him. He makes me feel so comfortable around him, it's almost natural. He caught me staring at him and smiled. He got off his bike and took his helmet off.

"Let me walk you to the door," he said. He took my hand and walked me to the door. "I'd really like it if we continued this."

"I'd really like it if we continued this too," I said. He pulled me in for a kiss.

"I'll call you," he said, smiling. "Good night."

"Good night, Taylor," I said, giving him another kiss. I watched him walk back to his bike and ride off. I sighed, happily.

I went inside and was surprised to see Adam sitting in my living room. I didn't see his car in the driveway.

"What are you doing here?" I asked him. I noticed that he had a dozen roses next to him.

"I wanted to apologize for my behavior, Court," he said. He looked extremely nervous and spoke extremely fast, I almost didn't understand him. "I'm sorry that I didn't tell you the truth about Haylie and Logan. It's just that I didn't know how to tell you and I panicked, the whole drugs thing was the first thing that popped into my mind. I'm sorry that I dragged it out for so long and I didn't tell you the truth. I knew that when you confronted Haylie that I should have said something, but I didn't. I didn't want you to be angry with me, but I messed that up. I just wanted to say I was sorry, Court."

I didn't know what to say. I was less irritated with him after the weekend with Taylor.

"And the Taylor thing?" I asked him.

"I did pay that girl to kiss him," he admitted. "I really didn't trust him around you. He wasn't good enough for you, Court. I wanted you to see that."

I also didn't know what to say to that. It irritated me that he butted into something that didn't involve him. It was none of his business whether or not Taylor was good enough for me.

"Huh," I said.

"So, where were you?" he asked me. "I came here yesterday, but no one was home."

"I've been in San Diego," I said. I paused. "With Taylor."

I could see his expression had changed. He looked angry.

"What the hell were you thinking, Court?" he yelled. "What kind of an idiot goes with their ex-boyfriend to a city that's 5 hours away? Are you out of your mind? He stalked you, remember? What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Well, Adam, I had a good time," I said, calmly. "You might not agree with my decisions, but it's my decisions to make. Not yours, mine. We had a good time and we're going to be hanging out. It might evolve to something more, but it's too early to jump the gun."

"What about me, Court?" he asked me, with slightly demanding tone. "I thought you were going to give me a chance!"

"I'm sorry, Adam," I told him, sadly. "I really don't have any feelings for you. I don't want to force something that isn't there. Maybe in the future, I might have feelings for you. But in the present, I really don't. I see you as my best friend and nothing more."

"Well, fine!" he yelled. He threw the flowers at me. "I brought those for you." He stormed out of my house, slamming the door behind him.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Fast-Talking Friday

Hey guys! It's finally Friday!

How has your week/day been going?

I'm officially drowning in school. I'm proud to say that I've been drowning since day one. It wasn't such a good idea to max out on units, but I think I've found a solution! Go to school, do homework/reading for a couple hours, nap for about 3 hours, go home and do more reading/note-taking for another 4 hours, then nap another 2 hours and repeat the cycle.

How does that pertain to this blog? I'll have to write posts on the weekends. Or, I can get an iPad (Do you guys have any opinions on the iPad? I think it is incredibly awesome, but I would LOVE it if it had flash on it so I can feed my insane addiction to facebook games) and type up posts on there. But, alas! That costs money and I'd miss the flash. It's super cool though.

Onto a more interesting topic:

Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day falls on the same day this year. How amazing is that? Do you guys have any plans for either holiday? I went to a Wal-Mart yesterday and there were aisles of Valentine's Day gifts (I almost passed out from red/pink/white overload, LOL).

I love Valentine's Day, even though some people don't, because of all the cute teddy bears, heart shaped chocolate boxes, and flowers. I love the idea that people all over the world are appriciating the people in their lives. I'm a hopeless romantic. =]

Feel free to comment below, I'd love to hear your thoughts on the iPad, your Valentine's Day/Chinese New Year/Feb. 14th plans, and Valentine's Day in general. If you don't like any of the topics listed above, you can bring one up. I'd be glad to chat. :)

Happy Friday and have a GREAT weekend!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


Taylor and I had the most romantic dinner in downtown last night. I don't remember the name of the restaurant, but it was a gorgeous restaurant with outdoor seating. There were candles on the tables, along with a single red rose. When I opened the menu, I was shocked at the prices. 50, 60 bucks for a steak? I end up ordering a salad and Taylor had ordered a pasta.

He held my hand almost the entire time at the restaurant. He didn't want to let it go while we were eating. Eventually, he had to let it go to use his fork, but I found it to be incredibly cute. We ended up sharing out dishes and our dessert. The cheesecake was to-die-for! An NYC cheesecake drizzled in strawberry sauce. I thought that the Chili's cheesecake was fantastic, but it didn't hold a candle to this one.

We ended the night out on the town by going to a club called Deco's. Somehow, by luck, I had gotten in without having to show my ID. We only stayed for an hour, it really wasn't my scene. I didn't want to see sleazy guys try to pick up girls. Luckily, I had Taylor with me and the guys had backed off.

By the time we had gotten back to the hotel, we were exhausted. Taylor turned on the TV and flipped through the channels until he found a movie that was playing. We had cuddled under his blanket and did more kissing than watching the movie.

"Thank you for today," I told him.

"Anything for you, Court," he told me, kissing my forehead. We ended up falling asleep in each other's arms.

Surprisingly, I woke up early this morning. Taylor wanted to take me to the zoo. I was really excited to see the animals. When we got to the zoo, the first animal we saw were the koalas. They were extremely cute. They didn't care that they had 10 people watching them, they still went on with their daily activities.

Our next stop were the elephants. Somehow, we had wandered to a place where the elephants were in cages. The people who worked at the zoo were feeding the elephants and providing them with water. It was cool to see them use their trunks to get their food.

Then, we waited 45 minutes in line to see the baby panda and its mother that were on exhibit for only 2 hours a day. We had also gotten to see the two older pandas. One of them was sleeping on the top of the tree and the other one had their back to us, eating bamboo. We had gotten lucky and the panda had gotten up and walked to the little pond to get a drink of water. So, we got a glimpse of her face.

The most memorable part of my day was getting to feed the giraffes. When I say "get", I mean, pay to feed the giraffes. We paid 5 dollars and had gotten 3 dog-treat-like biscuits. I ended up feeding a giraffe named Silver. He was very greedy and tried to take the biscuits away from the other two giraffes that were in the feeding area.

We had stopped in various gift shops all over the zoo. He had bought me two stuffed pandas hugging from the Panda Shop. I had gotten him a little stuffed tiger. We stayed until the zoo closed at 5. I want to come back one day to see the Polar Bear Exhibit that was closed due to construction.

"We should go back to the hotel and get our things," Taylor said. "I have to get you back home before school tomorrow."

"Ok," I said, smiling. I gave him a kiss and hopped on the back of his hike.

We went back to the hotel and got our things and checked out. We had a long drive back to Beachside. I was sad to leave San Diego, but I'll always have the memories from here.

Note: Fixing the post

Hey guys. I'm having a problem with the spacing of the post and am currently working on fixing it. I'll repost up the post when I'm finished. Thanks for being patient!

Edit: I ended up retyping the whole thing. I couldn't figure out how to fix the odd spacing problem. I think it was due to the picture I tried to put in the post. I'm sorry for the delay.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Take You There

We had decided to go to San Diego. Taylor said that Ricky would let us crash at their apartment on the UCSD campus. I wasn't too fond of the idea of rooming with Ricky, but I was excited because I had never been to San Diego before. It took us five hours to get to San Diego from Beachside and we got there just after midnight.

"Matthews. Matthews," Taylor mumbled under his breath. It took him 5 minutes to find Ricky's apartment. When we rang his doorbell, nobody answered. "I'll call him." He took out his cell phone and called Ricky's number. I heard it ring once, twice, until he reached the voicemail. I sighed.

"What are we going to do?" I asked him, worriedly. I was close to freaking out. I was starting to get scared. I was at a place that I was unfamiliar with and it looked completely deserted.

"We passed by a hotel on the way here," Taylor said, calmly. "We'll just rent a room there." I nodded. I just wanted to get out of here.

Taylor took us to the nearby hotel and I stood by the door waiting for him to get a room. I couldn't help but admire the way he was so calm when I was on the verge of losing it. I watched him as he talked to the hotel clerk. He walked up to me a few minutes later with a room key.

"Room 219," he said. "We'll be here tomorrow night too, I don't want to go through the hassle of finding another hotel."

"Ok," I said, smiling. I was grateful that Taylor had everything under control. I followed him up to the second floor. He opened the door and held it open for me. I smiled. I went inside and was shocked at how nice the room was. I thought we'd be staying in a cheap hotel. "Taylor, we can't afford this."

"It's fine," he said. "We need a place to stay and I already gave them my credit card."

"Since you're paying for the room, I'll pay for the food," I said, sticking my tongue out at him. He laughed. I set my things down on the table. "I'm going to go take a shower." He nodded.

I went into the bathroom and took a quick shower. When I walked back outside, Taylor was laying down on his bed and watching House. I smiled and plopped down on my bed. I was grateful that he had respected my space and asked for a room with two beds. I got under my covers and as soon as my head hit the pillow, I was out.

Taylor woke me up the next morning and surprised me with breakfast. He had called room service and asked them to send up my favorite- hash browns, scrambled eggs, and a piece of buttered toast.

"You are the best!" I said, hugging him. We took our time eating breakfast and talked about how his best friend was a jerk.

After breakfast, Taylor took me to this place called Seaport Village. It was gorgeous! There were so many shops with unique items being sold. I loved the outdoor dining areas overlooking the San Diego Bay. There were street performers performing. It was a very scenic place and I loved it here.

We spent the day going through the little shops, just being goofy and trying on silly hats. There were so many things that were great for souvenirs. We took a nice stroll and people-watched the other people who were out here today. We stopped for a little bit and sat down to watch the boats. It was a great, relaxing place to be. I could stay here forever.

"Do you like it here?" Taylor asked me.

"Yes, it's gorgeous here," I told him, smiling. I felt like a dork.

"I'm glad you like it," he said, grinning.

"Why did you take me here?" I asked him, bluntly. "You just dropped everything to bring me to San Diego. You could have just left last night." He sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.

"You really looked like you needed to get away," he said. "Court, if I didn't take you somewhere, you would have ran off somewhere else by yourself. You're safer with me. I don't want to see anything happen to you. I-"

I pulled him close to me and kissed him.